So often I wonder "do I really have someone's best interest at heart?" when we help someone, it can be more of a selfish act than anything. Currently I do not volunteer or spend much time actively doing anything for anyone else. My life has been set to auto pilot and I've given control of most decisions to the wind & water. While this relieves me of duty, it is a sure way to lose track of myself and others around me. If we do not distinctly define ourselves, others will not recognize us. So more difficulty can mean a better life.. No pain no gain?!
While its easy to see how others should change, it's tough to take action to change myself. I would like the recognition of the title "protector".. That someone needs me and that I am truly doing good for the right reasons. However these words are so subjective (or objective?) so more time is usually spent spent evaluating possible future actions than just making a decision and following thru. ..
One thought: becoming someone's protector may involve becoming a part of them, so much so that you don't know yourself apart from them. How then can you have perspective? Then protecting them or doing anything good becomes like doing something for ourselves. For example, how many new years resolutions are broken each year? This is something we swear to ourselves, but are ultimately not accountable for b/c we allow ourselves excuses. Hence, to be a good protector we may have to maintain our ego and humility.. I'm not exactly sure how to do this.. Maybe a good topic for next time!
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