the things they say..

Note(s) to self (and internet) for Sunday, 8 June 2012:

Recently suffering from lack of motivation and direction. I'm sure there are many available reactions to the presentation of different options in our lives. Namely when things appear to be overwhelming or unmanageable, the true question becomes: "what can i do today to feel as though i have accomplished something important". My problem has been shifting priorities too often. Sometimes we want to feel good about ourselves by staying late for work to help on that project, but what about our families waiting at home? Priorities. We all have them and i know that mine feel like they are always crumbling as a result of my continued inaction or mis-action (ie. attempting to correct a situation by using an incorrect solution).




just now i wondered: is it better to not act at all or act incorrectly? As i see it, i my past actions seem to haunt me more "quickly-er" than past inaction. For example, i purchased the wrong computer and the wrong car for my wife. Both actions might be considered "good", but i always look at them as last-minute, inconsiderate and thoughtless. Whereas my 30-day stint of doing absolutely nothing seems to be morbidly justified by "i don't know what to do". The obvious answer is >> think and feel first, then make the right decision the 1st time. I'm just completely incapable of this at the moment.. head feels like a 1000 volts went thru it and i'm barely capable of tying my own shoes in the morning. poor me.. yadda yadda




anyways, the best thing i can think to do when feeling like an absolute loser is to make a checklist of things to do! Most of mine never get done, and depression can result.. double-edged sword kinda.. so users of this tactic "at our own risk". Doing what i say and being a man of my word.. topic of different post.

For today, here are my priorities:

TASKS:

1. Set up insurance (100%) for car + Fix vegas phone plan >> order food??

2. Restore all internet, computer, phone and media monitoring systems to "Zero-Doubt-Level" (ZDL)

3. Find way to restore all "Korea rules" immediately >> ie. setup auto-pays for rent, maybe month-long pass for taxi? >> suggest month taxi card idea to base along w/ auto-pay for renters

4. plan visit to vegas + korea visit (start thinking about feb?)

4a. visa requirements

4b. tickets

4c. what to do??!!

5a. assignment counselor > ask options for requesting Nellis/Las Vegas

5b. family readiness > ask about nellis

5c. msgt williams > ask about nellis

5d. email old boss > civilian position @ nellis?

5e. get nat. guard contact @ nellis > ask options

5f. THRMIS website > check manning levels (maybe volunteer for 820 RHS non-airborne?)

6. post resume USAjobs.gov

7. email airborne flight

8. finish book

9. mail packages

10. update receipt book

11. bug guy? when coming to 1308 again?

12. freak out for no reason

13 try to remember all the stuff i don't remember that i was supposed to do in a previous checklist




will leave it there for now, maybe update this later







GOALS:

start being an adult again

1 compliment/day, 1 nice thing/week :)

name daily positives

smoking cessation class

gym