Insta-karma (just add trust)

After the dust had settled in the battlefield of my brain-land, the forces of positive thought collected their wounded and retreated back to claim their rightful place in my conscious mind. For too long i've allowed minions of negativity to rule within me, and i know they still may reign in certain parts of my cranial regions.. for now... but we were able to win my internal war with a simple realization: think positive. It sounds ridiculously simple, but for a cynic it can be a daily battle.

**quick note: i don't think any one person can conquer their demons to claim such important realizations within themselves without the help of another. I'm blessed to have, literally, the smartest, most insightful, loving/gentle and caring person in the world (my wife) on my side, helping, supporting and guiding me during my battles (against myself, i know that sounds weird!). I must give credit to her for my recent epiphany.. her ideas are beautiful and really work! trying to talk her into counseling, but that's for another time..




anyways, the battle was won by the light, darkness retreating to nurse it's wounds in dark corners. from now on the kingdom of my mind is being ruled by (what i hope to be) benevolence. These forces seem firm, strong and foreign, yet strangely known to me. As if they rode in on an external thought and found the support of the people.. long live the +! at any rate, i'm very glad for the recent clicks that have happened within me. Not 100% sure what they are, but continue to attempt to develop and shape them into a better.. something..




**quick worry: there is a bit of current instability, as the good feelings created confidence and my confidence has always been attached to arrogance. This may be a difficult monster to separate (arrogance from the more pure form of confidence), but have started to notice it... again, never on my own :)




so the effects of recent (seemingly positive) developments in emotionalitude.

-almost developed a solution to appease the true feelings of three people.. didn't quite happen.. or wasn't successful this time around, but still trying

- helped a person financially:




**quick story:

someone i worked with approached me b/c they had lost their debit card. asked if i could help. my wife and i agreed to assist this person with a transfer until their card arrived. the process was relatively quick, the person's parents forwarded us some money and we gave it to mr. no-card-o. Instantly the person offered to help us initiate automatic transfers with the foreign bank here (he speaks the local language).. this was shocking, as my wife and i had just discussed attempting to direct-deposit our foreign rent. I guess the moral of the story is having a positive outlook, trusting people can be rewarding in ways we can't even imagine!

more on this later possibly (or edited version) as i don't think i've fully captured the "twilight zone-ed-ness" of this situation..




conclusive evidence and closing remarks:

listen to others more, trust more, maybe expect less? < not sure about this one, expect more (of myself, always), listen again!

PTPA (positive thoughts, positive actions)