For most of my life i've played the role of "good guy" while my true effect on others has been more negative than positive. It wasn't until meeting my wife that i truly took an honest look at who i am and what i'm doing that i began to uncover the dirt that was hidden beneath a blanket of ego. It's difficult to look in the mirror and tell myself exactly what i see without embellishing or enhancing (or degrading) myself. Today i see a man that has not kept all of his words. A man that hasn't listened or even made a full attempt to. A selfish, jealous and often hypocritical person. I expect trust for my "good" deeds, yet haven't awarded others this same trust.
To remain positive, i have noticed great actions by others recently (admittedly i have been jealous b/c i don't always have the coolest thoughts to help others feel good about themselves).. but even if i'm not capable of the exact same way, i'm learning how to attempt support of others good deeds. I would like to thank my angel for watching over me and guiding me thru a difficult part of life for those around me. Today i hope to do something nice for someone else without getting caught! :):):)
thank you so much to those who carry their smiles to others! i can't wait to be part of the club!! :)
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